There’s that moment of panic after you receive certain phone calls.
Your heart races, emotion floods into every cell of your being and your mind begins to spin. Thoughts darts around like a computer on warp speed.. you can almost physically feel it stabbing through the connections and synapses in the brain.
It scours every corner of your mind to seek a solution to the problem. Every avenue is explored; every possible decision and probable outcome is calculated. In a matter of moments, the brain reaches it’s final destination. All of the “logistics” have been assessed and a solution is revealed in startling clarity. I call it…
Your breathing begins to slow, a sense of calm and resolute determination takes its place. All you need to do is begin with Step One and go ahead from there. The “Thinking” portion of your mind takes over from the “Feeling” and, with fortitude, each raw step of action is taken.
You know that you just need to follow The Plan”… it’s how you move from “this side of The Problem or Crisis” … to the other side. It’s how we can move from our lost equilibrium through instability and back to homeostasis once again. If we just stick with The Plan, add a few quick prayers and calls to friends and family, everything else will fall into place.
Now, I’m know you’ll recall how I’ve missed having my son at home… how I’d pondered locking him up in his room at Christmas and you can just imagine that I couldn’t wait to fly out to visit again. Soon enough, play-offs would be over and we could have him back again. Just last week, my son was mentioning that he, too, was looking forward to seeing his friends… Just not like this!
First… there was a text-messaged photo of an elbow (at which point the overwrought parent (me) insisted it must be broken). The next day, Physio…then an x-ray and an appointment with an orthopaedic surgeon. You have to know that with a health care system like ours, the rapid pace of these decisions was a red flag. Sure enough, the last phone call was to tell me our son was booked for surgery the following day. It was broken… had been broken for several months in fact… he’d just played through the pain…
That’s when the moment of panic I’ve just described began, which subsided with the formation of “The Plan”. My plane ticket was booked, bag packed and the next four days flew by in a blur. But, and I am ever so grateful, it was a systematic and smoothly run “blur”… I know that’s not always the case.
Well, now He’s home again… albeit with a huge cast on one arm… the bickering between the two siblings has begun, and there couldn’t be sweeter music to my ears.
I can’t say that I loved doing the five loads of washing, but now his clothes are clean and nicely tucked in… and so is he, well, sort-of…
I have to say, on that 6 hour drive home, I could sense that shift… the same one I felt when gazing at my daughter’s profile, not that many years ago. I could feel that separateness between us, that distinction between the boy who is my son and the young man who is his own person with a life and identity separate from me.
Somehow, somewhere… between the then and now, the there and the here… my son has become a man…
You also know that I’ve shipped out various boxes of brownies and cookies, chocolates and gift-cards over the past few months. Had this not happened, I’m certain I would have flown out with a box of these cookies next. I could tell you that they have magical super-powers intended for the fast healing of broken bones… that they are just packed full of “good for you” stuff… but I think they’re just home-made, mom-made, little bites of love and I know nothing cures faster than that!
For those of you familiar with the original Heartland Cafe… these are those addictive cookies we used to make for you and we all pretended they were good for us;)
Heartland Nutri Cookies
- 1 cup soft margarine
- 1 cup brown sugar
- 2 eggs
- 1/8 cup buttermilk
- 1 cup all-purpose flour
- 1 cup whole wheat flour
- 2 cups oatmeal
- 1/3 cup bran
- 1 tsp baking soda
- 1 tsp baking powder
- 3/4 cup chocolate chips
- 1/4 cup slivered almonds
- 1/4 cup pecans
- 1/4 cup sunflower seeds
- Cream margarine and sugar together until light and fluffy.
- Add eggs one at a time and continue mixing.
- Add buttermilk and then all dry ingredients, mixing well.
- Form into 4 oz balls and flatten to 1/2? and space 1-1/2? apart.
- Bake at 325° F for 15-20 minutes.
- Makes 16 large cookies.