just a smidgen

Every poem I write is a metaphor, has meaning beneath the apparent surface story written in verse. This poem is no different, it exalts and celebrates self discovery.

This past month there has been an unfurling of the “outer petals” of my life. Although each new opening bloom can reveal something honeyed and beautiful inside of me, still it has not been easy to look closely at the patterns and habits that have been the story of my life thus far. Around the carefully woven petals of protection I’ve grown also exist myths I’ve believed about myself and about those I’ve been in relationship with. There’s something painful yet achingly beautiful about discovering so much of what I’ve believed to be true just isn’t.

It humbles me, brings me to my knees.. “kissing the earth”, attempting to feel gratitude for each new revelation unfurled, however challenging. And so I keep pushing inward, looking to heal parts of myself I don’t really want to look at, I search for the fragrant scent of heartfelt truth at the core of my heart, my life. For once and for all, I want to open myself to frank honesty, and through this find possibilities, to integrate this knowledge in how I live my life.

As tears form like drops of rain on each petal, my style of dependent attachment, my insecurities, my lack of trust all need to be addressed before I can fully turn my face skyward in “vulnerable sway” in any relationship.

It’s taking all the courage I have to walk in faith, knowing that only my own thoughts and actions are open to change. Everyone else has the freedom to take their own journey. My freedom is found in my faith in Him, trust in myself and the knowledge that only I get to choose how I wish to respond.. or to not respond at all.. with the wisdom of authentic self-knowledge.

Love,

Barbara

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if you’ve been searching

to find your

purpose

i want to

encourage

you to try making a

vision board

it’s such an easy and

beautiful

way to map

out your

dreams

in a visual form-

i love displaying it in a prominent area of my home

there is no right or wrong

just gather a variety of magazines

cut out pictures and words

that

resonate

and glue on the size and color of poster board you love

mine is a large sheet of watercolour paper

each area of interest

has a number of words and pictures to

depict

it clearly

and also

{ artistically }

of course

i play a beautiful piece

Pachelbel’s Canon in D

here it is so you can use it if you wish..

the first time through the piece, i meditate on

each item on my

board

then the second time through

i close my eyes

pray

and

meditate

and see which areas i am most strongly

drawn to

other times

i run through

a complete day

in my

imagination

right from the moment of waking up

and living each and every minute of the

perfect day

lived according to my

vision and dreams

i think it would be a fun exercise to do with girlfriends

gathering together, sharing

inspiration

if you make your own vision board, i’d love to see it!

My friend and i did a live video on Facebook that gives you a number of other ways to find your purpose as well, so if a vision board doesn’t strike a chord, make sure to check it out.

Love,

Barbara

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